I know that idolatry is a bad thing, but I have never wanted to be anyone (other than myself, of course) more than I want to be Victoria Legrand. Every time I listen to Beach House, I feel more inspired to continue making music. This happens with almost everyone I listen to granted, even ABBA, but there's just a special place in my heart specifically for the band Beach House.

Sigh. It makes me feel silly when I make blog posts like this.

little smokies.

some days, Iowa City smells like the little smokies that mom would always microwave when we ate mac & cheese.

ABBA.

I can't explain this feeling.

JOB.

why will no one give me one?

I feel as though I have recently been anxiously waiting for something epic to happen.

I keep getting quickly excited and quickly discouraged about things with school. When I think about school, I am happy that I like what I am studying, but there is this sense of uneasiness that overcomes it. Will I get A's? Where the heck am I going to grad school? blah blah blah.

I don't know. Generally, I think I'm happier than I was at Iowa State because I really do like school now (for the most part. I mean it's still school). But then I realize how lame it is that the things that I consider 'highs' or 'new things' that are happening all have to do with school:
-I might graduate on time actually (or the summer after if I study abroad)
-I might study abroad
-I might do Honors
-I might get A's
-German is cool
-Art history is cool
-my schedule next semester is awesome

Is there really nothing else happening?